Putting mental health before psychology

For the last couple of months, I am drifting away from academia, for good. I know that I jump from ambition to ambition and maybe I will never stick to anything and I am a coward and a loser. But what I would rather believe is, if someone would tell me “You will be 3 to 4 times more likely to suffer from depression for the rest of your life, you will have 50% chance of suffering from depression in the next 5 years and 10% chance of contemplating of suicide” and than ask me if I would take this job, I would be very very hesitant. What on earth can be more important than happiness? What can a job offer to me if I am depressed?

During the final weeks of last semester I suffered from depression and anxiety. I have started anti-depressant treatment. I have started therapy. And I do not think that I deserve another round of this.

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Stumbling on Happiness

It has again been a long time since my last post. I constantly want to post something and than things get in the way, you know the deal. But this time I decided was this book was worth sharing. What I recently finished is Stumbling on Happiness by Dan Gilbert.

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What is chronotype and what is mine?

You probably have heard of “morning types” or “night owls”, or even the famous study about why night owls are more intelligent than morning larks (personally, I don’t enjoy the notion, and no I am not a lark). In this post I am planning to describe the issue of chronotype a little bit more in depth with references (ofc, you know I love giving ref) and some factual information such as “How is it measured?” without trying to bore you to death.
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A book on sleep: I’m ecstatic

It is 2:15 AM and I know it is a good time for me to start a blog post, and why is that? Because I’m an extreme evening type according to Morningness Eveningness Questionnaire (Horne & Ostberg, 1975).

I hesitate labeling myself as a bookworm since I do struggle with reading (why, here is the post for why) but when I find a book that tickles my insides I get all jittery and euphoric. Recently I was reading a book about introversion Quiet: The Power of Introverts in a World That Can’t Stop Talking and I thought “As soon as I finish this one, I’ll move on to a book about sleep.” Shockingly there doesn’t seem to be much written about sleep, or I’m a really bad googler. Nevertheless it’s actually nice that there is not much written, one of my dreams is to write a book, and I’d love to write one about sleep. Ok coming back to my topic, I have started reading Night School: Wake up to the power of sleep and even though I’m at page 40, I already don’t want it to end. By the time you finish reading this post, I’ll be finished reading the book because I’ll write over here as I go along with the book and publish the post when I’m done.
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Change in Topic?

It has been a really long time since I’ve posted something and most of it is due to my really busy schedule and lack of personal time to cultivate myself and share it on here. But there is also the fact that I have lost my habit of logging on to here after a long period of pause. Now I’m back, maybe I can get back on track.

This is solely a diary entry, because recently (for the last two days) I have been thinking of changing my area of focus. For the last 2 or 3 years I was seeing myself someone who will work on attention, ADHD, adult ADHD and more specifically adult ADD, but now, maybe I’ll steer into the deep sea of sleep?!

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A Study About MOBA Lane Preference

Hello everyone, my most recent curiosity is about Multiplayer Online Battle Arena (MOBA) games and personality types. As soon as I’m done with the data collection and analysis I will post the results here, and at /r/SampleSize as well. Until then this page will act as a place holder.

If you are a MOBA player yourself feel free to participate. I love a large sample size!

http://goo.gl/forms/mc9GpPamWF

sample size

A Study About Death Part Two

Hello everybody and thank you for your time! As you probably already know that this survey was not a part of a study and I have done no literature search beforehand. This is just a part of my personal curiosity. Before I go on to the results I must say a couple of things. First, I hate SurveyMonkey and up until the night I posted the survey I did not know that it did not give the results to me, it only showed the frequency for each answer. It is charging me (and quite a bit in my opinion) to give me the results so I am so sorry that the data of 150 participants are excluded from the analysis. But I did had the chance to read the responses to the last question, so we are good over there. From what I have read, I learned that I need to work on the questions a little bit more, on the explanations and the given choices. I choose to do it this way so that it could be a Likert scale and I could analyze the results easily but I’ll try to figure out a better way. Also I appreciate everyone who left a comment either to make a recommendation or to share their personal experiences. I really felt close to you guys, and if you look for someone to talk, you can contact me through here whenever you want, just state that you are coming from the Fear of Death survey.

Also for everyone out there with MDD or suicidal thoughts, I feel for you. Like I said you can contact me anytime if you need someone to talk, but also you can contact here too, they are angels: http://www.samaritans.org/ or here http://www.suicidepreventionlifeline.org/

 

Now the results of the study. Due to SurveyMonkey who doesn’t give me my data, my sample size is 71. And together with the comments, I might treat this part two as another pilot study and maybe conduct a third one but on Google Docs this time.

This “study” investigated if there is any correlation between people’s willingness to learn their time of death (TOD) and their fear of death (FOD). My hypothesis was that TOD and FOD would be negatively correlated, that is the less a person is afraid of death the more they would be likely to want to learn their time of death.

Participants were recruited through a reddit post and this blog page (N = 221) due to the policy of SurveyMonkey the results of 150 participants were not available hence the analysis was carried out for 71 participants.

A Pearson Correlation test was carried out and the results were statistically significant and indicated that the less a person is afraid of death the more they are willing to learn their time of death r(69) = -.337, p < .004.

When the responses were controlled for belief in afterlife the results were still significant r(68) = -.334, p < .005. Which means irrespective of their belief in the afterlife TOD and FOD were still correlated as before.

What I’ve learned from this study is that I could reject the null hypothesis (which is no correlation between TOD and FOD) and if someone is less afraid of death then they are more willing to learn the time of their death.

The raw data of the study is this:Fear of Death and Willingness to Learn The Time of Death – WordPress Copy. I removed the responses to the last question even though the participants cannot be matched with their identity, I did not feel okay with posting them.

And don’t forget kids:

Correlation does not imply causation!

If you have any questions or comments please leave below. I have taken an introductory statistics course yet so I hope that I did not make a mistake in the analysis or the interpretation of the results.

And I wish you all happy lives and healthy brains!

Cover to Cover: My ADHD-I Story

Well I wanted to write this piece for a loooong time but because it would be really time consuming and all the ideas are flying through my head, I never had the courage to start it. But now, I have Ritalin in my system (and yes I’m prescribed) and all of a sudden I feel that I can accomplish it (surprise surprise!)

So I believe that it’ll be a long post and I hope that I can cover everything.

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